Baby, you are so worth it.

My brother posted this video on his MySpace.  I thought it was cute, so I thought I would share it, too.
-Baz Luhrmann's Sunscreen


Now's the time when I complain about pain like an old lady (but hey, what else are journals good for if not for some venting now and again?):
My back hurts SOOOOO bad!  I can't stand it!  It's not my lower back that's causing me the most trouble- it's my mid back, a little above my waist.  It's driving me crazy.  I still get sinus headaches every night, and I think I have a cavity or two.  It hurts to eat hard food or drink cold liquids on the right side of my mouth :-(.  I haven't had any teeth problems in YEARS (since I was a little kid) so I HOPE it's just a cavity, though I don't really remember what one feels like.  I need to get to a dentist.  Also, everything is a pain to do now- get up off the couch, lay down, sit up, roll over, bend down to get something, put on my shoes, etc.  I can't sit through a movie anymore without feeling cramped. I can't even sit through a church service.  My whole body is just achy.  I really need to get into some maternity yoga to see if I feel better.  I can get some yoga tapes from the library, but I have to wait until I get my address changed on my license before the library will let me get a card :-(.

Looking on the bright side:
Everything is worth it.
I hardly care that I am fat and sluggish and I have a hampster face.  I don't care that I can't paint my toenails and I haven't shaved my legs in days.  My hair looks like crap and who knows when I will ever fit back into all of my cute clothes, but I don't care.  I feel beautiful because I am going to be a MOTHER- what is more beautiful than that?  Soon I will hold MY baby in my arms and I'll be able to pour out ALL of my love and hold nothing back.  He'll rely on me for everything and for some reason that doesn't scare me in the least because I will love nothing more than to drop everything for him.  He is worth ANYTHING I will go through, and everything I will give up.
I still LOVE feeling him kick.  He's getting stronger and stronger.  I can feel his punches now, too!  Sometimes I feel so many kicks and punches at once, and on opposite sides of my belly, that I am certain he is doing things in there that are humanly impossible.  He is a stubborn little guy, though!  It seems that he only kicks for me, and he never does it when I want him to so that Ben (or anyone else) can feel him or see him.  Oh, but as soon as we are alone he is all over the place, and I can see a thousand ripples all over my abdomen.  Oh well, at least I get to enjoy it :-).  And I do enjoy it very much.  When I wake up at nights and he is moving, I stay awake just to feel him.  It's the best tangible connection I have to him right now, and so it reminds me that he's REALLY gunna be here soon!  :-)

Off subject:
I want to see the movie Juno.  I think it looks really good.  When does it come out, anyone know?

I'm going to go get myself a SHOWER.  Then maybe snuggle in bed with some cranberry juice and watch tv 'til Benny gets home.  Then who knows.

ForeverLove